Love yourself first!

self love

You’ve probably heard a million times how important self love really is. And I think it’s more than just a new cheesy trend. The phrase ”Love yourself first” is so much more than just an Instagram caption, a quote, written in a nice font. It’s the most important step you have to take on your path to a fulfilling life and it’s both easy and hard to achieve. But when you do, there’s no more settling for something or someone. There’s a lot of working on yourself, finding out what makes you happy and what doesn’t, what makes you productive and what makes you feel lazy. You start reaching for you dreams, regardless of other’s expectations and you are surround yourself by people, who will encourage you, help you, believe in you. There’s no more thinking about how you should look. Instead of that, you focus on how you want to look – inside and outside, and you don’t care about the ideals in magazines and social media. You see yourself as a whole.

The path to self love is the one that never ends. You might have some wrong turns, some steps backs, some stops. Just keep going :).

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New Year’s Resolutions

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I don’t really know if that is the right title, but yeah, I’ll kind of talk about new year resolutions. I hope I am not too late, but I really wanted to take the holidays off :D. Towards the end of the year I realized that I’ve come to the most stable point in my life. Somehow all of the pieces came together, I feel like I’ve developed as a person the most in the last few years, I faced my old problems and left them behind, I’ve become more ambitious, creative and motivated. I’ve left some old dreams behind, not because I would feel like I can’t accomplish them, not because they would scare me. I just woke up and saw that they weren’t really my dreams, but a combination of something I thought I should be. I think I could say I went back to my childhood dreams, free from any outside effect. With much more experience, knowledge and motivation. I was always a bit afraid of my creative side, because I was scared I wasn’t talented enough. I was always my worst critic, just looking for the mistakes and not looking at the big picture. In the past year, that has also changed a lot. And now, I’ll have to wait work and see what can happen.

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Pole dancing and body positivity


I’ve decided to write this post when I’ve realized that for the past year, I could step on the scale and not worry about the number for the first time in my life. Now I think it’s just a number, not something that defines you. But I needed some time to realize that, so I think it’s best to start this story at the beginning.

I was one of those extremely skinny girls when I was a teenager. Partly because of my bone structure, partly because I wasn’t eating enough for all the activities I was involved in that time. There practically wasn’t a day without a sports activity and I should have adjusted my calorie intake – but I didn’t. I actually loved the fact how skinny I was. Growing up in the age of super skinny models, reading magazines filled with diet advice and photos of ”ideal bodies”, my body seemed kind of normal to me, I liked that I looked gentle and fragile, and I had no idea why people close to me were worried. My body image was completely disortorted and when I looked in the mirror, I didn’t see what I see in the old photos now.

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