Under a lot of stress?

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Yesterday, I  left two of my three student jobs, because everything was slowly becoming a bit too much to handle and I decided to keep the one that is the most connected with my studies and where I could work enough to get me through the month. One of the main reasons is that I had zero time to work on my thesis, and since I have no desire to spend three years writing it, I had to kick myself in the ass and get to work. For the last few months, I felt like I have to all of the things at once and when I wanted to take some time for myself, I always felt a bit guilty when I saw all of the work waiting for me. So guess what happened last week? I got sick and definitely didn’t get better with working everyday. For the first time in ages, I had zero appetite and I could sleep all the time. My body wanted a time to rest and now I see I have to spend some time at home, in bed, to get better. Our bodies will tell us when they need a break, we just have to learn how to listen to them. That’s something I’ll have to work on:)

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A positive body image in the age of perfection

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I’ve decided to share my story a few weeks ago and let me be honest, it was scary. But at the same time, it was like a huge weight was lifted off me and I could leave that chapter of my life behind. I’ve been thinking a lot about a positive image since then and why do we find it so hard to love our bodies the way they are. I can look on my experience from a distance now and I can see how much I wanted to be perfect, but for me, the standard was so high, I could never reach that perfection. I also included some pole photos in this post – no retouch, no hiding of ”flaws”. Pole dancing is a sport that sometimes squeezes your body, shows your rolls and cellulite, but it’s my happy place and I feel the most comfortable there. When I was younger, I saw that complaining about your body is an often subject in girls conversations. Whether it’s just general complaining about that few extra pounds (the ones that, believe me, are not extra, that’s just the way we see it), talking about diets, about running, working out… And nowadays it’s no different. We keep seeing photos of some would call it perfect bodies (let’s admit it, we know what Photoshop can do) and we compare ourselves to them in our everyday lives. But you know what? In our everyday, there is no perfect, soft lighting or many layers of powder to keep our skin looking perfect. There are no posed moments. It’s just us and our (sometimes busy) lives. We sometimes do our make up in bad lighting. Sometimes there’s a light in a room that gives us bags under our eyes. We are bloated on some parts of the month, or maybe we just don’t feel like wearing a tight dress when going to dinner because of our ”food baby”.

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Pole dancing and body positivity

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I’ve decided to write this post when I’ve realized that for the past year, I could step on the scale and not worry about the number for the first time in my life. Now I think it’s just a number, not something that defines you. But I needed some time to realize that, so I think it’s best to start this story at the beginning.

I was one of those extremely skinny girls when I was a teenager. Partly because of my bone structure, partly because I wasn’t eating enough for all the activities I was involved in that time. There practically wasn’t a day without a sports activity and I should have adjusted my calorie intake – but I didn’t. I actually loved the fact how skinny I was. Growing up in the age of super skinny models, reading magazines filled with diet advice and photos of ”ideal bodies”, my body seemed kind of normal to me, I liked that I looked gentle and fragile, and I had no idea why people close to me were worried. My body image was completely disortorted and when I looked in the mirror, I didn’t see what I see in the old photos now.

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Healthy Beauty Snacks

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Yesterday I talked about make up products, today it’s time to talk about snacks that make your skin look good and most importantly, make you feel great.First here are some snack you can easily include in your diet, but there is also a recipe for granola bars in the making, so stay tuned.

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